liked and loved

I have a need to be liked and a need to be loved. In some ways it is a terrible weakness.

People will use both against you. People that you trust. People that you think like you. People that you think love you.

Why is it so important to me?

Today I was talking to someone in the music business, an artist. As a manager I am always on the lookout for a good artist. Gary Borman, manager for Faith Hill, James Taylor and others (A guy other managers would have to respect) said that the manager duties of being a manager aren't that tough...the tough part is finding the right talent to manage. I sure would agree with that.

Anyway I'm talking to this lady and I asked her if there was anything else she wanted to know about me, and she said, "no, I know some people who know you. Some of them said good things and some said bad things."

That has been a couple of hours ago and I can't get it out of my mind...how come???

I think I'm a good guy....I try to be. I don't claim I've never lied or never cheated in my life....but day in and day out....I try to be a good guy to treat people well. so it bothes me when people say bad things about me.

I wish I didn't care. But I do.